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2008-10-25T22:37:00.000-07:00

She have decided that this will be the last blog from her. This is the 3rd time she watch "Money Not Enough 2". Each time she watch it, tears will filled up her eyes and just rolled down her cheek. She is reminded of the past. Can anyone believe that 1 yr have just passed lidat in just a blink of our eyes? The day where he left her forever, she will nv forget it.. she is still grieving over the past and she simply cant let go of the past.

She will just continue to keep everything in her heart and life will still goes on for her.. The final lap for her poly life. Good or Bad? Cant be determined i guess..

Thanks for everything. You have hurt her too deep till she cant take it anymore. She realized that nothing she does makes you happy.. All the happy memories are no longer there.. everything becomes so blury.

2008-10-14T22:06:00.000-07:00

I am veri lazy to update my blog.. seriously, i feel like closing down my blog. =S

Total madness.. can u imagine that i woke up at 5.45am today? tossing here and there but unable to get back to sleep already, so i decided to go for a morning jog around 7am since my lesson starts at 9am. =p Second day of school.. 3 hrs of lectures can kill me!! super sleepy after merely 1/2 hrs. LOLs..

My bro came back from Italy already for his business trip. Chocolates from there are veri different. Especially it's Ferrero Rochas( it is spelled in another way.. cant see how to spell it). Veri yummy.. when u put the chocolate in ur mouth.. the thick chocolate will mend in ur mouth.. without any nuts. Another type is that some of kind of wine is being wrapped up by the dark chocolates. The wine smell is kinda strong.

Before school reopen, i met up with my sec school friends. Bee chun, ruth, michelle, jun ping, ek, tze ping and khakit. Walk around Clark quay for serveral times.. Wondering where to settle down to chat.. In the end, we decided to go to Eski Bar and henry happen to be working over there too. When i reach home.. i am pondering over the past and i just cried.. zzz.. i still cant let go.. Haiz.

Lastly, i still haven upload the photos i have taken during my birthday, given by my baby.. veri sorry.. =S

2008-09-15T02:19:00.000-07:00

Went out with my baby today! He came to fetch me around 12.30pm and he gave me a surprise! A super cute rose on the outside of the giftwrappe; inside it is a scholar bear.. LOLs... I loved it lah.. sha gua.. Will post the pics soon.

Reached vivo around 1pm and we shop around, decided to catch "Death Racer" with him instead of Wall E.. 2 movie tickets only cost us $7.50.. Hahaha.. The cheapest price we gotten as its a birthday treat from GV plus the member card is so cute.

Between 1pm to 3.35pm, went hunting for my presents!! Went to grab something for lunch over at California something.. Cant recalled the name.. The burger is quite yummy but alot of sauces drippling out from it that it stained my dress.. *sobx* I still teased my dear that he don't know how to eat, but in the end it seems that i am worse than him.. Lame lohz.. =.=!!!
Baby bought a Turtle coin purse and a blue mushroom.. Hehe.. Turtles are sooooo cute.. Bought a thighs from Forever 21 and saw a top veri nice.. Aiming for it.. Notice majority of the shops are selling checker clothings and some are so nice but is rather costly?

After the movie, we went to Bukit Panjang Plaza.. Used to be my workplace for a short period of time. ^^ bought a top and another thighs.. Dinner over at The Cafe Cartel. Both of us ordered signature dish and is quite tasty but i forgot to take pics of our food. Sorry baby.

Homemake breads served

2008-09-14T22:34:00.000-07:00

14th Sept.. also happen to be mooncake festival today is a day whereby i should be feeling elated? Haiz.. but that's not the case.. I am feeling so moody.. zzz.. Haiz.. Cause someone is no longer by my side to celebrate my birthday with me already? Even when my bro call me.. he also asked me why do i sound so sianzz... My friends also asked me why do i sound so sian..

Thanks for all the greetings that i received from my friends... and my family plus my nephew sang birthday songs to me!

Went over to stay at a hotel with mummy, elder bro and his family on 13th sept.. It is near mustafa? LOLs.. I went straight after work to look for them..

Smiles Smiles Smiles.. I am supposed to be feeling happy...Letting go of the past is wat my friends told me but i just cant.. Imagine someone looking after u since u are born and the every memories that we used to have.......

Anyway, i manage to "repair" my v3 today after much slamming and hitting of it? LOLs.. surprisingly after 1 yr plus.. it could still be repaired. But i lost all my friend's birthday dates... Zzzz.. So sorry that i nv msg them.. LOL..

Lastly, Happy Belated Birthday to Marina and Harry Potter!!

2008-09-09T00:24:00.000-07:00

I went over to Xing Wan again.. LOL.. my lao gong came to look for me and dinner over there.. Was starving the other day loh..

Hai.. Life has been boring to me huh? There are so many things i would like to say to u, yet i chose to kept quiet. Lies Lies Lies???

Mid-Autumn Festival is coming soon and guess wat? Harry Potter; my ex colleague's birthday is on sept 13.. lols.. surprising!

2008-09-02T23:52:00.000-07:00

Oh gosh.. I am feeling rather idle to go to work nowadays!! But everytime i think of those cute babies patronizing the shop with their parents, i would force myself to go.. =p My lady boss treat me to IKEA's hot dog bread together with mustard and chili sauce.. *Yummy*

Sat was Ms Wu's wedding!!! Congrats to Ms Wu but sorry too that i am unable to go.. I had to work full..
I was slacking around with my boss and we feel like munching on something and we decided to go for the ongoing promotion! There is a promotion going on which says that with every purchase of $10, u will get a set of OLIVE set meal which compromise of 1 yoghurt and a packet of cereal. We reprinted 1 of our customer's receipt and i went down to redeem the meal~~

Olive Set Meal

Feeling so full after munching on the cereal.. Started finding things to do as it was quite quiet on that day..

I am missing the feeling of having dinner at Xing Wan Cafe.. Haha.. Will we have the chance to have our dinner over at there againnn?

2008-08-21T21:25:00.000-07:00

Sentosa today.. Ruth was suppose to be here too but she got job orientation.. Board bus number 100 and it was a free ride! The bus was so crowded when it reach my stop.. Still squeeze in and the driver just smile to me. LOLs.. Decided to go off around 2.10pm cause i am meeting my bf after that.. While bathing, some shampoo got into my right eye!!! *painful*

Hmm.. reach his house around 4.30pm.. Saw his mummy outside his unit.. Oo.. when i went in. he told me that the technician will be making his here around 5.30pm to get his in-built webcam fixed! Watch tv while waiting.. He keep tease me.. saying i prawn.. =.= I AM NOT LOhz..
Only my face abit abit red nia.. His mummy also asked me why my face red red de! lols.. ps lohz.. Went home after dinner.. duii bu qii lohz!!! Haix..

My mummy called me and had quarrel a little againnn over the phone.. Haiz.. When i reach home.. It was the first time that she will reason out to me.. No raising of our voice, no slamming of things, nth! Talk as in really talk.. She began telling me the past.. She could remember it clearly.. The every little things that appear to be so blury to me.. Tears began to fill my eyes... for i had remember the fact that he has already left me forever.. His only request made to me was to take good care of mummy.. Nth else..

Labels: Duii Bu Qii...

2008-08-20T08:22:00.000-07:00

Dinner over at Xin Wang Hong Kong Cafe located at my workplace de shopping mall with my Laogong!! She so good, come find me for dinner. Hehe.. i ordered noodles with spicy pork cutes while she ordered Black pepper Chicken Chop plus a French Toast!!? Iced Milo and Iced Milo Dinosaur for our drinks~ I cant really recalled our orders....

My break was supposed to be 1/2 hr only but we dragged it into close to 45mins? Enjoying the music and the food with her company.. ^.^ The French Toast was a last minute order by her! I was shocked as i was afraid that we might not be able to finish the foods!! so much lo~ My noodles was quite yummy and the French Toast was nice~ Feeling so full and we cant finish the French Toast..

Saw another table also order this; French Toast.. One of them eat is like it can be cut into 6 pieces nia.. =.= I cant helped but keep laughing.. Peeping at them all the while.. and enjoying my Iced Milo too~

2008-08-19T07:22:00.000-07:00

I dread the feeling of walking home alone after work.. listening to music; 183 club's Gan Qing Xian & etc.. Suddenly recalled so much things.. This December will be 1 yr le.. The day where he left me. Haix. Cant help but think of the past, now even when i call him.. i cant hear his reply anymore le.. If i were given the chance, i would rather listen to u than quarrel with you.. Dui bu qii..

I copied paste this entry from one of my friend.. Just feel like posting this story over here.

"On my wedding day, I carried my wife in my arms. The bridal car stopped in front of our one-room flat. My buddies insisted that I carry her out of the car in my arms. So I carried her into our home. She was thenplump and shy. I was a strong and happy bridegroom.This was the scene of ten years ago.The following days were as simple as a cup of pure water: we had a kid,I went into business and tried to make more money. When the assets were steadily increasing, the affections between us seemed to ebb. She was a civil servant. Every morning we left home together and got home almost at the same time. Our kid was studying in a boarding school.Our marriage life seemed to be enviably happy. But the calm life was more likely to be affected by unpredictable changes.Dew came into my life.It was a sunny day. I stood on a spacious balcony. Dew hugged me frombehind. My heart once again was immersed in her stream of love. This was the apartment I bought for her.Dew said, You are the kind of man who best draws girls eyeballs. Herwords suddenly reminded me of my wife. When we just married, my wifesaid, Men like you, once successful, will be very attractive to girls.Thinking of this, I became somewhat hesitant. I knew I had betrayed my wife. But I couldn t help doing so.I moved Dew's hand aside and said, You go to select some furniture,O.K.? I ve got something to do in the company. Obviously she wasunhappy, because I had promised her to go and see with her. At themoment, the idea of divorce became clearer in my mind although it used to be something impossible to me.However, I found it rather difficult to tell my wife about it. No matterhow mildly I mentioned it to her, she would be deeply hurt. Honestly,she was a good wife. Every evening she was busy preparing dinner. I was sitting together. Or, I was lounging before the computer, visualizing Dew’sbody. This was the means of my entertainment.One day I said to her in a slight joking way, suppose we divorce, whatwill you do? She stared at me for a few seconds without a word.Apparently she believed that divorce was something too far away fromher. I couldn t imagine how she would react once she got to know I wasserious.When my wife went to my office, Dew had just stepped out. Almost all the staff looked at my wife with a sympathetic eye and tried to hide something while talking with her. She seemed to have got some hint. She gently smiled at my subordinates. But I read some hurt in her eyes.Once again, Dew said to me, He Ning, divorce her, O.K.? Then we livetogether. I nodded. I knew I could not hesitate any more.When my wife served the last dish, I held her hand. I ve got somethingto tell you, I said.She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.Suddenly I didn t know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her knowwhat I was thinking. I want to divorce. I raised a serious topic calmly.She didn t seem to be much annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? . I m serious. I avoided her question. This so-calledanswer turned her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man!At that night, we didn t talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardlygive her a satisfactory answer, because my heart had gone to Dew.With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which statedthat she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. Sheglanced at it and then tore it into pieces. I felt a pain in my heart.The woman who had been living ten years with me would become a stranger one day. But I could not take back what I had said.Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer.A late night, I came back home after entertaining my clients. I saw her writing something at the table. I fell asleep fast. When I woke up, I found she was still there. I turned over and was asleep again.She brought up her divorce conditions: she didn t want anything from me,but I was supposed to give her one months time before divorce, and inthe month s time we must live as normal life as possible. Her reason was simple: our son would finish his summer vacation a month later and shedidn t want him to see our marriage was broken.She passed me the agreement she drafted, and then asked me, He Ning, do you still remember how I entered our bridal room on the wedding day?This question suddenly brought back all those wonderful memories to me.I nodded and said, I remember . You carried me in your arms , she continued, so, I have a requirement, that is, you carry me out in your arms on the day when we divorce. From now to the end of this month, you must carry me out from the bedroom to the door every morning.I accepted with a smile. I knew she missed those sweet days and wished to end her marriage with a romantic form.I told Dew(BITCH) about my wife s divorce conditions. She laughed loudly andthought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she does, she has to face the result of divorce, she said scornfully. Her words more or less mademe feel uncomfortable.My wife and I hadn t had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. We even treated each other as a stranger. So when I carried her out for the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly, Let us start from today, don t tell our son. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for bus, I drove to office.On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on mychest. We were so close that I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn t looked at this intimate woman carefully for along time. I found she was not young any more. There were some finewrinkles on her face.On the third day, she whispered to me, The outside garden is being demolished. Be careful when you pass there.On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I seemed to feel that we were still an intimate couple and I was holding my sweetheart in my arms. The visualization of Dew became vaguer.On the fifth and sixth day, she kept reminding me something, such as,where she put the ironed shirts, I should be careful while cooking, etc.I nodded. The sense of intimacy was even stronger.I didn t tell Dew about this.I felt it was easier to carry her. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. I said to her, It seems not difficult to carry you now.She was picking her dresses. I was waiting to carry her out. She tried quite a few but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, All mydresses have grown fatter. I smiled. But I suddenly realized that it was because she was thinner that I could carry her more easily, not becauseI was stronger. I knew she had buried all the bitterness in her heart.Again, I felt a sense of pain. Subconsciously I reached out a hand to touch her head.Our son came in at the moment. Dad, it s time to carry mum out. He said.To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had been an essential part of his life. She gestured our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face because I was afraid I would change my mind at the last minute. I held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom,through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly, as if we came back to our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad.On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step.Our son had gone to school. She said, Actually I hope you will hold me in your arms until we are old.I held her tightly and said, Both you and I didn t notice that our lifewas lack of such intimacy.I jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my decision. I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door. I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I won t divorce. I'm serious.She looked at me, astonished. The she touched my forehead. You got no fever. She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I can only say sorry to you, I won t divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn t value the details of life, not becausewe didn t love each other any more. Now I understand that since Icarried her into the home, she gave birth to our child, I am supposed to hold her until I am old. So I have to say sorry to you.Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into cry. I walked downstairs and drove to the office.When I passed the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet for my wife which was her favorite. The salesgirl asked me to write the greeting words on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out everymorning until we are old."

Of course in the end its a good ending lahh. =)

2008-08-13T23:33:00.000-07:00

Working working working~~ haha.. Started my part time job over at Baby Chloe since last Wednesday. Though the working hours are rather long but i enjoyed my time at there too.. Babies!! They brighten up my day totally, their smiles are so sweet. Chubby and cute~ =p

Bought 2 dress too.. I like one of their material too~ veri nice and smooth. Feel like wearing skirt to work but... was banned!! =( so sad.

Back to Luminary world. Baby! we chiong lvl and get good weapons. haha.. then we can go pking. Shall we?

2 months holiday~ How should i spent it? Shopping!!! sun tanning.. work.. spent time with baby and families.. Hmm.. that's what i can think of so far?

Sometimes i cant help but think of the past, haiz.. Happy moments 4ever gone? No one will understand how i feel.. Cherish what u have at the moment.. That's all i could say~

2008-08-04T00:17:00.000-07:00

This is Tokyo Banana!!

This is Bai Shen Lian Ren!! My special request. LoLS. Thanks alan..

The food i ordered at Farewell cafe....

And the drinks....

2008-07-06T04:46:00.000-07:00

will update my blog once i am done i things...

feeling too moody to update i guess. >.<

2008-01-13T23:51:00.000-08:00

Finally i am back here to post an entry. or else SOMEONE would be nagging at me that i didn't update it.
Hmm.. Been busy with projects, projects!!! ecad, dwa, PM and OOAD2. omg. all are cramp together. Zzz. brought this issue up during the eforum session! haha.. It was a fun session to me, Oops.
Looney Laptop! had trouble opening up my programs. can you imagine having to wait for 1/2 hrs just for it to get a program started? Oh gosh.. i really cant take it! So, from 7.30pm onwards, my dar crack his head to actually think of the main cause to why my laptop is acting in this abnormal way. We even bet that there will not be any virus while doing the virus/spyware scan And he lost to me. =P
I am looking forward to going your house and stay? seems enjoyable to me and i will definitely peep at ur wardrobe. wahahaha.. then we can chit chat till late nights? hehe.. =D
Lastly, 12/4/08, SYF at Hua Zhong Institution. Hohoho. You have my full support, "All the best!" lols. Finally i crack Your doings. haha.. wondering whether you will see this part. =S

2008-01-01T00:00:00.000-08:00

HoHoHo. this is my very first post for 2008! Told someone that i will go and edit my blog skin and resuing it. Finally today i have resued it, reviving it a little?? Better revive soon, or else someone will nag at me for bluffing her wor.lols.
3 new year wishes...... to be left untold. haha..
A brand new year, hope everything will be better. Mummy, Please stay strong.haiz. U have yet to see me graduate!!
More photos to be posted. lols.

Finally, Wishing everyone A Happy New Year. =P
Best Wishes

2007-11-12T06:09:00.000-08:00

it's been ages since i last blog. so many things have happened. wat am i supposed to do?
i hate everything that i am undergoing now!!! i hate my life more than ever, can i really take it? seeing u suffering makes my heart ache, losing my appetite with u.
It is no longer the place where i am familiar with, been really moody. i tried wearing a smile on my face, but the words kept repeating in my brain.
*Fuck off the stupid agent* fancy onli caring abt the money that u are sucking from us. U need pp and u are looking so desperately, and u don care a fucking damn abt us.U are so FAKE. Everyone seems to be wearing a mask on them, all are so FAKE!

signing off:undisclosed secret.

2007-10-20T07:22:00.000-07:00

spider webs is slowly getting more and more i guess?school have started for me.. finally eh? after around 2 mths of rest, working and shopping? argh, i don even have the time to shop.Zzz.. had met all lecturers and new classmates. quite interesting.lol. 1 of my lecturer is a indian, haha.. the way she talks make me feel like dozing off.. even i cant take it..
this week is ending soon, meaning next week is approaching soon?eh.. stupid question i guess. but haiz. i wish the day will nv come. wat if, wat if.. the result is a negative 1? wat if we cant accept the truth. all the questions are floating in my mind. but yet, who will be there for me to share my sorrows, my worries, my fear?

2007-10-06T21:05:00.000-07:00

Everything seems to happen so fast. how i wish everything could onli be a nightmare. whereby, i wake up, things will be back to the normal again. but i noe its a nightmare whereby i wont be able to wake up from.
seeing u in pain makes my heart bleed. knowing the truth but not confident makes my heart bleed even more. i could just stand by ur side hopelessly and see u in pain. countless of sleepless night, sobbing under my bed.
I'm Sorry

2007-09-30T07:16:00.000-07:00

the pain that u are undergoing make my heart so painful, so unbearable.
night without u is so incomplete; pls recover fast.
how i wish i could bear all pain, so that it would be better for u.
my onli wish now is that u could recover fast and nv leave me.....
haiz. life is unpredictable

2007-09-26T13:30:00.000-07:00

finally i am here to update le..Ooops..sorry guys.work and more work is wat i have been busy with. after comex, continue working for starhub.. haven had a day off till 14 sept.
14 sept; my birthday.. enjoy my day out with my dar, thanks for all ur gifts..haha.. i love them!! had our dinner at marina; Pariss.. wow.. scrumptious and yummy!!! a gift for myself is also arriving tml morning..hehehe..cant wait for it man!!!
haiz..i have been sick for quite sometimes le..Zzz.. sorry to make my colleagues and dar worried too.. =S .. my colleagues kept asking me whether i wanna go home anot and etc.... but..working with them is sooo fun, we almost went all around the island just to have our lunch? hahaha..

2007-09-02T10:31:00.000-07:00

an end to comex show le.. feel so great working at comex. though i am feeling worn-out after 4 longs days.. enjoyable working there.. my IC were so awesome..lol.. outgoing and willing to lent us a helping hand.. we undergo OJT, imagine how many mistakes we will make in the start? feel so bad to the cashier.. finally able to settle down a bit on the 2nd day.. learnt alot of things.. i will work for them again de.. if time allows me to do so.. it might be another holiday job too.. get to know alot of friends too.. most of them are all working for the corporate le.. my turn coming soon? haha..
there are pp outside our room, queueing up le.. crazy man.. when it time for me to report to work which is around 8.30, the queue were so long le.. =.=!! can slp don wanna slp.. haha..
our IC were asking us to help out for the rest of our hoilidays..

that's my name tag.. hehe.. i am at counter 9.. my favourite number..

pig pig travis keep saying about me..lol.. donnoe y he keep disturb about me lohz.. donnoe wat he heard either.. =D

2007-08-21T21:13:00.000-07:00

finally the tedious training have came to an end.. there were alot of minutiae abt the company.. after my exam, will have to start memorise all of those. at the last part, there were quiz and roll play..fun huh? haha..
i manage to escape from the roll play.. hohoho.. lucky me? =P
tml will be having my DB paper.. anyway.. think my cousin's prelim is coming.. all the best to her.. bear for another 6 more weeks and u can play as much as you wanna..
finally.. HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY to my da mei.. lol.. though it seems super late. =x

2007-08-20T23:43:00.000-07:00

18/8/07.. went to watch the firework.. it was so crowded.. climb to one of the building and stood there awaiting for the firework to start.. waited for around 15-20 mins then it started with the firworks.. omg.. it was so awesome.. the firework just light up the dark sky with so many different colours and pattern..

went for the training today.. for the first half of the training, i was still feeling quite awake.. but after our lunch, i begin to doze off every now and then. i cant help but feeling so fatigue.. had to survivor from 8.15 to 5.30.. imagine the information that the trainer is feeding us for such long hours?? brochers brochers and brochers are wat we have to take note on.. stuffing ourself with more information on the corporate.. but seems fun to me?

the materials that were given to us. Oops.. i got 3 staff pass cause 2 girls pass their to me.. mayb have to return for them.. =.=

my staff pass.. to the entrance.. haha.. sry, it was too blur.
tml will have to undergo 1 more days.. haha.. hopefully tml i wont doze off again..

2007-08-13T23:31:00.000-07:00

went out on the 10/8.. out with my pal and dar dar.. went shopping.. whoo..wanted to go bugis but in the end there was a jam so we change to orchard.. then took bus to bugis. the 3 of us were feeling so bored at around 10 plus, nth much to do since most of the shops were preparing to close.. so sad, roam one big round around orchard after which they bring me to a wulu wulu car park?? recalling that they was a pool centre there? omg.. no cars at all de lo.. if someone were to chase after us or sth, we sure in big trouble.. scream and shout till no voice also no one will come over to rescue us. in the end, reach the shop but there was a notice saying that "they will be shifting over to another place with effect from 10/8." are we counted as "lucky"?
in the end, decided to drive to Mount Faber. A bit creepy to me but the scenery was nice followed by having a drink over at "The Hill" cafe if i am not wrong.
headed home at around 1am.

2007-08-07T23:21:00.000-07:00

Yuppy!! i pass my interview le.. with the help of someone de.. lol.. so i have to undergo trainings on 20 and 21. just before my papers.. Zzz.. whr can lidat. hopefully it will be a success lohz.. =P
so happy that i pass the interview.. and thanks to SOMEONE!!

2007-08-03T21:00:00.000-07:00

An end to biology test.. hohoho.. still cant imagine.. i dread the idea of studying Bio during my sec school life but now it has become one of my electives.. i just dislike all the contents that we have to memorise.. all the chim chim words..
3 more tests to go and i wil be free.. holidays is coming my way.. yeah!!

2007-07-30T09:57:00.000-07:00

don't know how long never blog le.. lazy ba.. been busy with school works too.. moreever, i also dont know wat else i can say here. i had my hair rebond too.. -.-!!! is i kana psycho de.. but i find my hair too flat now.. still not use to it either. somemore. i sit there for 3 long hrs.. my bum is glue to the chair.. my leg was numb for seconds when it was finally done..
holidays are coming soon which is on late August.. awaiting for it then i can finally rest le.. geez.. =P
hmm.. find that the name : debbi is cute.. haha..
would you even notice that i change my skin?? mayb not ba..

2007-06-02T20:05:00.000-07:00

before our paper starts, went to eat pizza at timah..omg.. we were all so full when our second pizza came.. today. there was 3 pizzas.. i guess that meal last most of us till the next morning le.. lolz..
kbox after our last paper seems to be the usual routine already.. saw 'new faces' too at kbox. few of the guys got high.. Zzz.. quite fun too.. went home at 11 plus.. cause next day i still got to work.. dont know they sing till wat time too..
went to IT fair yest.. so crowded.. reach around 7.. then walk around.. waited for dar dar's sis.. went to have our dinner at qi ji around 8 plus.. since IT fair will close at 9.. then headed for home..
holidays is coming in 1 weeks time.. yeah.. so glad.. finally i can take this chance to relax and mayb learnt new things? hopefully, i will see tat uncle this sun.. Zzz..

2007-05-18T00:59:00.000-07:00

went to e Euro Fun Fair today after our MOS thingy.. yeah.. both of us gt 1000 le.. stress.. first que and i panick le..lolz.. finaly it's over le..
Euro fair.. haha.. wanna try something exciting. hmm that mayb e 'sky rider' wasnt so scary as compare to e other 2.. but i was wrong!! at first, still feel ok but as it speeds up, i was like "omg!! so fast.." when i look down, it seems to me that my leg was going to hit something anything.. better close my eyes..lolz.. i am timid no choice.. =S we are flying so high so high up that as it changes a position, i could feel e impact of the wind hitting on my face.. scream!scream!!scream!!! was all that i could do.. scream everything out le.. all e unhappiness, worries etc... if gt chance, i will sit that again, i name it as flying chair.. haha.. but with dar dar?? Oops..

hmm.. reliease something today too.. i wont give a damn to it anymore le..

2007-05-12T13:46:00.000-07:00

an end to elearning le.. finally.. haha.. i would rather have lessons..keep having late night slp too..
my t/p was a success..lolz.. my group's training was fun and even saw my bro.. gd gd.. *relieve* cause it isnt too difficult..
fri, went shopping with meiling too after our IS.. haha.. on e way was hunting for "something" too.. cant find it.. argh.. so hard to find de lohz.. whr else gt e shop?? went vivo and fareast.. had to hug my laptop along too.. it was so heavy.. now then realise tat.. *hopefully i am able to find it on time ba..."
i wanna e june holiday faster come.. wondering whether they will lie to me anot.. haha.. hopefully not ba.. ^.^

2007-05-01T01:11:00.000-07:00

LABOUR DAY..
haha.. spent my first half of e day at work.. after work, dar come fetch me and go suntec city there to meet ferry they all lohz..then go watch spiderman3.. e movie starts at 9.50; ending at 12.04..2 hrs plus.. haha.. watch till so late..feeling sleeply.. lols.. while waiting to be seated, we walk around..there are moving out sales going on for some of e shops at marina.. DA MEI(JINger), u saw? marina.. our next destination.. okays??lolz..
e show quite nice too.. haha..

2007-04-28T22:44:00.000-07:00

school started for 2 weeks le.. fast.. keep changing our classrooms unlike yr 1..abit troublesome too..have to keep checking our time table.. saw someone at canteen 3 e other time..haha..so funny, e both of us.. nowadays someone keep going to canteen 3 huh.. lol..trying to peep peep right..
currently craving for doughnuts!! omg.. i buy 7 eleven but nt veri fresh? or nt up to my standards..lolz.. dao mei craving for hotdog and is say is delicious..lolz..

2007-04-15T09:09:00.001-07:00

wow..in less than 24 hours, i will be hugging my laptop to school again..attending my first lecture which is bio(IB).. first lesson.. hope things goes well for us. =D
shopping, shopping and more shoppings!!haha..this is how i spent my last weekdays.. calls from office twice but we all so reluctant to go back for back man..cant simply push it away and enjoy ourslef to e max..lol..bought quite a number of things.. was fun shopping with u guys especially da mei..lol.. e kfc meal spoils our day somehow..e places i went all around e same..orchard,bugis.. cant wait for my hair to grow long too..wanna do sth to it..lolz..
up next is our credit card T/P..haha.. hopefully it wont be tough and lets pass tt test on time..yuppy.. jia you guys..lol..we can do it de..

2007-04-04T15:01:00.000-07:00

holidays are coming to an end..so many things just seems to happen in this holiday.. izzit gd or bad,i oso donnoe..feeling so doubtful.. onli knewn tat REALITY IS CRUEL!!! haha.. i must enjoy e last wk of my holiday..
anyway..lao gong ar..is nt ur fault tat i tried drinking la.. u noe e reason y i wanted drink.. don blame urself or anything k?u can anyhow change ur nick still.. holidays ending le..must enjoy urself k? must miss ur lao pao hor!!!haha..must be there for ur lao pao too..
actually i put another song on my blog cause gt 1 person say he like tat song.. a quite long chinese song.. *cry on my shoulder* how nice..haiz..cant help but start thinking abt e past..

2007-03-30T08:26:00.000-07:00

tried sth stunning today..lolx. i drank. bought 2 bottles. 1st time drink tat much ba.. cause i feel so miserable..then i saw my lao gong's nick, so wanna try drinking to numb myself.. wat can i say lehz? stupid? feel giddy..cant walk

straight too.. mayb wont touch alcohol le ba.. haha..

2007-03-27T23:20:00.000-07:00

donnoe wat to say.. can i say.. i don wish everything to come true? but i noe it cant.. must i really ren ming.. this is e onli time i don wanna ren ming.. argh!!! haiz.. life is unfair.. my mind still in a mess,
*if its a dream. i wish i would nv wake up from it..*

2007-03-21T13:14:00.000-07:00

i got into e electives i wanna..happy.. planning our outing with azizah and sab..haha..going cycling first..=D
suddenly don feel like blogging anymore.. let my blog to rot there? so tired..haiz.. i am sick le. fever,flu, sore throat. gd or bad i oso donnoe.. things happen in such a fast rate..both happy and heart breaking.. which decisions will be e best??? kept thinking.. *sigh* will things end with a happy or a sad one?? lets wait and see ba..
yest at work, we started thinking abt chen yu tat matches e meaning.. in total, there are 10 questions,guess wat? i onli gt 1/10.. haha.. thrown everything back to my chinese teacher?
this entry seems to be in a mess.. no choice cause my mind is also in a mess..

2007-03-10T22:39:00.000-08:00

went to work early in e morning and i saw chairs at our checkup counters..lol..thought 1 of e rules was tat we were nt allow to sit during working hours?thought my eyes playing trick on me.. then when it was 5pm,sharon told me muliani came..omg..it being quite a long time since she quit her job there le..haha..so glad to see her again, wasnt able to meet up with her tat time.. had a veri long chat with her too..chatted with from office to bus-stop..miss 3 of my bus.. then decided to pei me walk home.. wat she had told me was almost e same as my lao gong lohz.. she wanted to ask me go queensway but i meeting someone else le..Zzz..so in e end acc her till her bus came..overall, we talk for close to 1 hr??lol..so long wor..
went home,bath,take a quick bite since i lunch onli eat cup noodles..then go down to meet my another friend go queensway.. had another quite long chat?lol.. like keep chatting.. but mayb all so busy for e past few months ba..hasnt really sit down to have a proper chat le ba..haha..around 8 plus then she has to go already.. acc her wait for bus then went home le.. haha..
hmm..our results will out in 4 more day..5 more days..lol..

2007-03-09T21:28:00.000-08:00

today finally meet up with my lao gong.. hmm.. meet at city hall mrt there first then walk to suntec.. went there for the IT fair too.. quite crowded cause when we went, it was lunch time.. saw a mp4 which i like..the person took out one of e design i like.. play around with it for a while then return it le.. is nice de lohz.. hmm..when we came down to level3, saw piggy..omg..we talk like donnoe wat lohz..my lao gong see liao oso cannot tahan us talk lohz..lol..
then we took mrt back to bugis.. saw quite a few shirt i like..bought a new shoe too.. see e person promote until so jialat???so buy lohz..went to OG too.. when we came out, we bought ice-cream.. yummy.. then decided to sit down after 5 hrs or walking?went inside Fu Lu Shou Complex, spotted a massage chair?put $1 coin then it will massage for u for 3 minutes. decided to try.. guess wat?me and my lao gong keep laughing..donnoe izzit pain or shuang.. people walking by oso keep staring at us.. so pai seh.. but veri fun lehz..walk back to village then shop for a while more then decided to go home already.. saw someone veri familiar too..really looks so familiar..Zzz
had a veri long chat too.. especially at long john there..hmm..will miss going out with u.. gt time must go out again..had a fun day out with u..lol..take care ar my lao gong.. gt problem must come find me hor.. i wil help u de..=D
6 more days to go..Zzz.. miss u lots too..hmm..u must be enjoying ba..haha..

2007-03-04T19:41:00.000-08:00

hmm.. tml he going to fly to china le..sobx.. i don wanna lehz cause i will miss him.. =x haiz.. my dar.. must take care of urself.. come back singapore don grow fat wor..make u do sit up with me..=S lol.. so many things on my mind but donnoe how to write here oso..
this month i am working super less lohz..Zzz.. boring...but i finally can relax le ba.. when school starts, i don seem to have a off day.. might be a gd thing? and when he come back to singopre le.. i can go find oso le.. haha.. exercise to loss weight oso.. Zzz.. can sleep for e whole days..

2007-02-26T12:50:00.000-08:00

yuppy.. finally i gt my modem repaired today le.. need to go down to boon keng road.. cab there with my papa.. haha.. cause i nt sure how to go..Zzz.. hmm..now i can use as much as i like le.. i haven been able to access the internet for e past 2 wks le.. so boring when i reach home lohz.. haha... sometimes when i free, i go find my dar dar too.. tried to repair oso cannot..
hmm.. so fast now new yr le.. haha.. gt hong bao.. go work oso gt hong bao to take.. haha.. muacks.. love them and thanks.. new yr was fun, my 2 nephew so cute.. then just learning how to walk onli.. then so short short la.. see them walk here and there. veri cute de.. haha..lol..

2007-02-16T14:35:00.000-08:00

yuppy.. an end to all e exams already.. i keep on no mood to study.. when we were studying together, it was like so hard for him cause when i mood swing, his mood oso somehow gt affected by mine too.. =S so sry.. but now, we can enjoy le.. yeah.. can throw my books away for 2 months.. it time for me to watch hua yang shao nian shao nu le.. haha..
tml is cny eve le.. omg.. so fast sia.. yeah.. i love it.. gt hongbao and lots of yummy snacks.. but i still gt to work in e morning sia.. 7 start work,so early!!! dont think e others will wake up so early ba.. hope can slack.. =X Oops.. happy tat everything has ended..
went to kbox with my classmates after our final paper too.. don feel like going de but somehow they are celebrating it for dar again so i go lohx.. went home earlier than e rest too cause i super tired.. they ask me sing, then i put e mic far far away from my mouth.. =X cause my voice nt nice de lohz.. haha..
yeah.. love cny and oso some1.. haha..

2007-02-06T23:20:00.000-08:00

yuppy.. yest was the first time he send me to work u noe? ahahaha.. i am so happy u noe.. cause first time ma.. see me wear tat "aunty" uniform and operate my own counter.. he stand behind my counter there, i shy shy.. Zzz.. donnoe y lehz.. haha.. but still veri happy la.. tat u send me to work.. haha.. thanks..

2007-02-02T22:43:00.000-08:00

yuppy.. i gt a new shoe le.. hehe.. finally.. dar dar bought for me de.. so gd sia.. hmm.. my current working shoe, wear liao.. my toes super pain.. donnoe y lidat oso.. Zzz.. hmm.. so no choice but to buy new one lohx..better than let my toes gt hurt.. bought a brown one instead of black..nice nice.. hehe.. thanks dar..have to start studying le.. exams coming le.. have to manage my time better cause on some days, i oso have to go back and help out..

hmm.. still gt a baggy and one pair of shoe haven buy!!! haha.. then tat's all liao le.. i guess..Zzz.. dar.. saw?saw? haha.. someone's birthday oso coming le wor.. but have to work on tat day too.. till 5pm.. hmm.. hopefully can spent e rest of my day with u too.. u noe?u noe?through i tried requesting for an off day when i saw my schedule but failed!!! *sob sob*

2007-01-30T04:15:00.000-08:00

today when sentosa with shuan they all..some of my s&w classmates oso went..
morning went to e servicing there with dar.. then took 145 go harbour..went to meet ferry at vivo there to take e skytrain.. e feeling is like LRT lidat de lo..reach there around 12 le ba..just watch them play volley, sit there and chat chat with meiling.. haha.. things are changing le.. really.. i have already done all tt i can.. haiz.. and i really dont wish to care abt it anymore.. seriously.. cause i am tired enough.. cherish me as a friend or lose me.. ok? haiz.. hopefully things will not turn out tat way.. really cause i don wish it to happen..
around 5 plus, me and dar went to claim his car too.. hmm.. his car regain the power liao le.. haha..
Mon: i was almost late for my demo.. luckily.. i walk veri fast lohx.. Zzz..scare my program wasnt working properly too..

2007-01-28T05:07:00.000-08:00

hmm.. yeah.. TCP got 2nd for e interclass match.. well done.. haiz.. but i still feel a little bad.. we lost by 2 scores lidat.. omg.. so ke xi.. hmm.. but everyone did veri well lohz.. haha.. e photo i steal from marina de.. lol
hmm.. finally we finish our UID le.. don have to see her anymore.. yes!! so happy.. and i guess.. i wont get veri gd grade for UID ba.. no choice.. tat cher.. argh..
wow.. on thursday(25/1/07).. i finally saw my lao gong le.. haha.. yeah.. so happy man.. after one year u noe.. then i saw my lao gong.. then we hug hug at e canteen.. haha.. miss u so much u noe??? so happy finally i saw u le.. =D stay pretty man.. hmm.. it seems like u go highlight ur hair again wor?
new yr is coming oso le..will be slightly busier than now.. after school oso have to go work le.. Omg.. but no choice.. haiz..
he is going to china with jh.. e form is with me now.. argh.. really don feel like handing up for u all lohz.. nv hand up = nt going.. Zzz.. haiz.. but no choice ba.. thought i am so veri e unwillingly..argh.. mon faster come.. before i change my mind man.. =X

2007-01-21T05:26:00.000-08:00

haha.. hmm.. my veri first weekend which i don have to go work.. yes.. so relax sia.. at first sat gt go work de.. morning go for e open house thingy with dar.. last day of open house le.. then after tat, edit my java then hand in le.. haha..
after tat.. i don feel like going to work.. so i call back.. hehe.. then after tat went shopping with dar.. on e way to orchard.. was raining so heavily..so scary.. cant even see e roads.. hmm.. i like keep "playing" with his car de things lehz..e screen wiper(donnoe wat tat one call)..lol.. Oops.. reach e car park there but full.. Zzz.. how can.. then in e end park at e public car park lo.. then wanna walk to e other side, e road flooded with waters.. so high lo.. then he ask me jumped.. but in e end, i surrender.. i walk abit into e water cai jump cause e gap too big le.. my leg too short.. =X
he bought 2 shirts for me..haha.. i still wanna so many things lehz.. hmm.. let me list out.. haha.. gt shoes, skirts, jackets, bags bags!!!
went to far east plaza.. saw a bag veri veri veri nice.. haha.. brown colour de super nice.. hmm.. if slightly bigger a bit, i sure buy de.. but tat one onli handbag..too small to bring to school le.. guess wat i did to tat bag? i pull e rest out and hide tat brown colour de inside.. hehe.. don wanna let pp see ma..Oops.. will continue our second shopping trip too.. =P

2007-01-17T22:30:00.000-08:00

haha.. just reach home.. so tired.. just had our interclass for volley.. Zzz.. omg.. i finally can serve le.. hehe.. even though nt everytime lo.. but still happy.. first time i serve, no one go catch e ball cause no one expect e ball to cross e net sia.. haha.. i oso stun la.. then second was during e match... shocking too.. and earn one point for our group too.. =D
hmm.. like my class.. cause no matter how bad we did.. shuan will still say.. nvm, gd try.. unlike my last time de e classmates..Zzz.. onli noe how to blame.. hmm.. tml is e semi final le.. mayb will play against ferry de team too.. so.. hmm... all e best.. =D

2007-01-14T21:50:00.000-08:00

hmm.. yo guys.. haha.. i am back le.. it's 2007 le.. hmm.. have been stuck at 2006 for a veri lon time le.. finally come update my blog le.. hmm.. 2007.. a new yr for everyone.. hopefully things goes well for everyone out there.. =D
finally change my blog skin le.. haha.. nice? nice?
gt back my CT results too.. Zzz.. abit disappointed though.. haiz.. volleyball interclass coming oso le.. tml is ferry they all e team go first.. hope they do well.. can go final.. then wed is our group's turn le.. omg.. scary.. hope we can go final too?? i still don really noe how to play sia.. hmm.. trying hard.. =X
yeah.. finally gt a new necklace le.. ever since i drop my dolphin de e other time.. i was so sad.. been wanting to get one.. haha.. happy..
being busy with projects too..tiring.. y e cher so stubborn??? omg.. cannot tahan her sia.. argh!!!last few weeks and we wont see her le.. yeah.. last minute say this.. Zzz.. think we so pro ar? hiyo.. still say tat time she gt say.. argh..
haiz..today.. found out sth tat hurts me.. Zzz.. don wish to mention too much too.. in my heart, it's bleeding..

2006-12-25T22:16:00.000-08:00

hmm.. before i slp, i decided to come update my blog.. haha.. today was a terrifying day for us lohz.. Zzz.. a guy or rather uncle who carrys 3 big bags keep coming in to our store and asked where are the beers being placed.. the cashier/staff would answer tat it is at lane ... then he reply, u might as well hide them inside the toilet.. OMG, we didnt hide it.. it is being placed there.. we all say he drunk le and a drunk person doesnt know wat he is doing.. tat is e scary!! he every 30 minutes or so will come in and ask e same old question and e same reply from him.. and each time, he onli buy 1 can of beer.. e moment we saw him, our reactions would go "OMG, he is here again le..shit..faster run.. " is really scary.. my hand starts to tremble whenever i saw him and tremble even more if he is standing near to my counter.. hoping tat he wont come talk to me.. he is hanging at our store there.. shit.. tml pls don come..

feeling so tired oso.. hmm.. donnoe y i feel giddy so easily.. Zzz... wat is happening to me?? i really donnoe.. haiz.. can someone tell me??

2006-12-22T06:57:00.000-08:00

hmm.. have u all seen a dog vomit?? no right?? dog wont vomit de right.. but today me and my friend saw a dog vomit sia.. so stunning but veri gross oso lo.. Eeee.. somemore, e owner shop for so long, we all see le oso feel like vomitting.. then i go buy sweets and share share with the cashiers.. finally e owner pay money le.. she saw e "thing" then just kick it away.. OMG, super gross lohz.. later pp stand on it then veri ke lian le.. veri bored at last counter.. but nvm ba, can take e chance to rest too..

2006-12-20T22:16:00.000-08:00

hmm.. finally today is my off day.. sigh.. then my next off day will be on e 27 le.. sob sob..christmas oso gotten work.. i spent my day at home sleeping.. pack my room too.. wanted to go out but e weather like will start to rain anytime.. have to carry e umbrella.. so ma fan.. last few days oso feeling veri tired, at work oso suddenly feel veri giddy.. hmm.. donnoe y lidat oso.. hmm..

2006-12-17T06:08:00.000-08:00

Moody Day

moody.. moody.. moody.. haiz.. feeling so moody this few days.. feel tat so many things have happen to me.. my holidays doesn't seem like a holiday to me cause i still have to work.. Zzz.. haiz.. today.. kk tell me say tat e system of a stupid thing dont have my name.. y lidat sia?? i remember i got scan in lehz.. but y don have?? hmm.. then she ask me whether i got collect money from the customers anot.. i say got ma.. if don have.. how come my acc still can balance.. weird.. have to wait till bee lie come back tml then i will noe how to solve this questions ba.. Zzzz.. sleepless night le ba.. most prob have to pay the balance from my own pocket le.. sob.. haiz..i have my lunch break oso will kana scolded.. sianz lohz.. Zzzz..

today also aaron de last day at work le.. haiz.. sad.. cause 1 joker gone le.. hmm.. like one by one pp are leaving.. poh lan.. siddi.. sharon.. muliani.. dorine.. bee hwee(soon)..haiz.. feeling more and more sianz each day..

2006-12-15T20:58:00.000-08:00

yeah.. finally exams over le.. finally sia.. haha.. after our last paper on wed, went kbox with my classmates.. then they open bottle.. started singing around 5?? then till 9pm.. quite fun lohz.. they ask me to sing.. i got sing lohz.. but mayb too soft ba.. then cannot hear.. haha.. too bad lohz.. =D kai feng was the most busy person there.. haha.. cause she was choosing e song etc.. then e guys wanna make chris drunk.. donnoe y lehz.. then after tat he really got drunk then blur blur de then started singing too.. haha.. then ruixiang and aloy de gf came too..

hmm.. today was a tiring day.. help my parents to paint my house de living room.. haha.. hmm.. nice.. cause is i paint most of the walls de.. haha..

y things turn out lidat?? haiz.. this oso isnt wat we wanna.. nobody wanna this to happen dont we? haiz..

2006-12-11T12:26:00.000-08:00

my bad day

haiz.. sianz sia.. today was like my bad day lohz.. super bad lohz..haiz..
-first unlucky thing.. UID paper like i got alot donnoe how to do lohz..sianz.. fail le ba..
-second unlucky thing.. suddenly lose mood to study..
-third unlucky thing.. lie to someone.. sry.. i didn't mean it de..
-fourth unlucky things.. i lose my pendant.. my dolphin de.. sianz.. i like tat alot de.. sob.. i drop where sia?? haiz..
-fivth unlucky thing.. i sprain my leg.. haiz.. super pain lohz and got a bit swollen oso lohz..

haiz.. y i so sway today sia?? sob.. veri pain sia.. haiz.. stupid bk..

2006-12-08T22:15:00.000-08:00

Scary day

haha.. omg.. just now was so scary sia.. heart beating veri veri fast sia..scary things wasn't going according to our plan sia... haha.. but think he can guess dao lo.. hmm.. but nvm lo.. just wanna say to u oso.. hehe.. veri scary lo.. *phew* haha.. scary but fun.. hehe..

2006-12-07T22:15:00.000-08:00

./.. Lost Mood ../.

i am back le.. after so many days sia.. haha.. hmm.. suddenly lost mood to study..so i come update my blog lo.. hmm.. last few days.. busy with assignment ba.. one after another.. and my path doesn't seem smooth for me too.. so i nv blog lo.. just wish to keep to myself ba.. cause even if i say le.. nth will change de ba..

CT coming le.. haiz.. sianz.. can i don take?? haven chosen our major oso le.. hmm.. donnoe whether i have e right choice anot too.. hopely yes?? after CT, e 2 weeks holidays i oso have to work sia cause of Christmas coming le.. haiz.. sad.. onli will get to off for 3 days.. hmm.. feeling so sleeply.. i wanna rest more sia.. but i cant.. eyes feeling veri pain sometimes.. donnoe y oso?? then veri scare oso lo..

Mon: got around 1 and 1/2 hrs break so decided to go bukit timah plaza(if i nv remember wrongly) to eat duck rice.. then surprisingly..i saw Poh Lan.. OMG.. so happy sia.. and it her first day at work there too.. then chat a bit bit onli then she have to go back to work le.. but she was veri gd to me oso lo.. miss her.. how i wish she would come back.. hmm.. haha.. she oso ask me got there more often.. and i will de when i have e time..

**hope my mood faster come back lo.. haiz..sianz.. Zzz**

2006-11-28T18:25:00.000-08:00

What is LOVE exactly?
It is a word that many people around the world hear or say everyday.
For some people, LOVE means spending the rest of the life living with the person he/she love.
And for some people, LOVE means going to bed (PERVERTIC).
From my point of view..LOVE isn’t just a word.It’s a word humans use to confess to other humans.
In fact, LOVE is unlike untrue LOVE. Untrue LOVE means wasting money, time, effort, feelings & patience.
Why do I say that?
MONEY: Have to buy flowers even when the economic is so bad.TIME: Have to communicating with the girl or boy.EFFORT: Trying to woo the girl or boy.PATIENCE: Wait for her to arrive when going on a date.
If you are in love with a person you really love & it’s a true love relationship, you would never mind going through all these extent just for your loved ones.
1 more thing, never ever say ‘I LOVE YOU’ to a girl or boy, say ‘My feelings for you is so deep and sincere and I don’t want you to leave me’.
So, when you ‘LOVE’ someone, make sure that you are very prepared for all these sacrifices.

hmm.. saw this at my friend desgin de webby so i just copy it.. haha.. just find it interesting ba..

2006-11-26T19:10:00.000-08:00

my bad day at work

after working for 1 yr le.. everytime.. i can onli ren no matter wat remarks which were said to us and not arguing back.. u noe how difficult it is?? everytime.. i will try to ren but.. it's difficult.. got once.. someone told me tat no matter wat.. no matter how difficult the remarks will be.. "nv shed any tears in front of tat person, nv show tat person tat u are weak".. i remember those words.. and i once make a promise to myself tat i wont cry le but today, i still did..

manager: pls la.. y save e money for not repairing the belts??? we don like it.. neither do the customers like it.. today.. i already kana scolding and nagging liao lo.. even kk oso kana call out.. u save the money onli to make us get scolding.. lidat gd mehz?? how many more complaints do u wanna before u start to repair the belts???

oink oink: pls la.. the more u talk.. the more i will hate u onli.. y make urself till lidat?? u this bitch.. go other branch and bully their cashiers.. they complain to their manager and noe u at which branch le.. u think this is veri proud ar?? pls lo.. u are no diff from tat durian aunty do u noe??? just shut ur mouth la..u think this is funny izzit???

i am really tired.. i cant hold back my tears.. my eyes are already so painful liao..haiz.. belt spoil.. they don wanna repair oso our fault.. everything oso our fault.. sianz la.. all onli noe how to blame and blame us onli.. u bully us.. next time ur daughter/son come out to the society and work.. they oso kana bully by pp wat.. so wat is the use??? haiz..

2006-11-23T17:43:00.000-08:00

sick and tired of my life

my heart hurts.. it is bleeding(emotionally).. tat is the main reason y i nv go to school today.. no matter how sick i am.. i would still drag myself to school.. but after all those things i saw.. i really wish i could disappear from this world.. i donnoe how to react when i saw u.. as per normal??? i doubt i can do it.. i really feel veri tired.. if u would me, would u feel happy??? would u like it??? arrgh.. i cannot take it anymore..really cant.. whenever i am alone.. i would remember the everything i saw yest.. argh..
life still would go on as per normal even without me.. so it is better without me.. i guess.. i really think so..

iS tHiS hOw mY liFe gOeS???

2006-11-21T13:34:00.000-08:00

is this how my life goes??

haiz.. y must things become to wat it is now?? it's so tiring.. veri tiring.. at work.. at home.. in school.. everywhere.. there seems to have problem.. will things go back to how it has in the veri first place?? i doubt so.. i have lost alot of the nice memories which were given to me in the first place.. they are broken and nv replace back le.. i feel tat i am so far away from everything.. but not from u..
i wish that in this world.. there will ba a pill.. whereby eat le.. we will be in a coma.. onli to wake up after we have think through everything and face them but not avoid.. haiz..
how long can we avoid? things just go back to how it was in the first place.. when i was at the school bus stop..waiting for bus to go home at 8.45 ba.. i suddenly don wish to go home.. just be alone.. out in this world.. where no one can find/ contact me.. but.. i noe i couldn't.. there are still so many things which i haven do.. ..........

2006-11-17T22:30:00.000-08:00

donnoe wat to post oso.. haiz.. i really donnoe wat is going on.. i really feel so weird.. haiz.. suddenly.. i feel so tired of my life.. tired of being myself.. wanted to delete away my blog.. but i noe this one is done by 2 best buddies.. u noe.. really cant bear.. but haiz.. when then i can leave this complicated world?? when then will things go more smoothly for me?? i really donnoe.. how long can i tahan i oso donnoe.. i am losing the every strength to ren le.. it hurts whenever the truth is told to me.. all the things which i can do.. i ahve already done le.. e rest is all up to my fate le.. haiz.. see me when i am outside, i like siao siao.. keep laughing and smiling.. but.. haiz.. just kept things inside myself.. y say it out when it is not going to solve any of the things which happens?? can i really let go of everything inside my heart?? i really donnoe.. 4 yrs have past but time still didnt heal anything.. how long then can it heal?? how long then i can forget abt the incident?? i really donnoe.. haiz.. when then i can untie all those xin jie in my heart?? haiz.. i wish.. i wish.. i wish.. i really wish.. just a simple gal who has a simple wish.. haiz.. is it really so hard to make it come true?? haiz.. all i have been doing is avoiding all the issues.. i don have the courage to face it.. but how long can it last?? how long can i avoid?? i oso donnoe.. haiz.. as long as i can ba..

2006-11-11T19:46:00.000-08:00

hmm.. working morning shift today.. boring la.. cause i at e last counter.. counter 6.. no customers come to my counter de lo.. then i just sit there waiting for my lunch hr to come.. but before i went for my lunch.. i saw this regular customer of mine carrying a baby then come talk to me.. OMG.. e baby was so ke ai!!! she was onli 2 months old.. keep smiling de.. haha..

then after tat donnoe y suddenly got headache.. haiz.. then it was so painful tat i cannot ren le.. so go chief cashier room and ask for pandol lo.. hmm.. tml i can get to see e new cashier le.. haha..so curious abt her..

rain and rain and rain.. hope tml morning after i reach e office will start raining heavily oso.. then tat stupid durian aunty wont come and disturb us le.. haiz..

2006-11-10T21:05:00.000-08:00

hmm.. this few days feeling so tired.. so sleepy.. donnoe y sia.. mayb not enough slp ba.. sleeping quite early too.. lessons were boring too.. especially OOP lo.. haiz.. feeling so helpless and stupid whenever i started doing OOP.. everything make me feel headache.. one small changes and all e errors would start popping out lo.. see pp so clever noe how to do.. but me lehz.. haiz..

today walk past atrium when i was on my way home.. then saw this "stall" so i walk over lo.. then got this small little boy who was promoting his staff.. so young and yet he is able to promote.. hmm.. can see tat he has quite alot of confident in himself.. i wish i could be like him.. so confident in myself. but haiz.. i lose all my confident le.. donnoe how to find them back.. hmm..

yest we had a long break.. 2 hrs plus.. went to eat with marina they all.. then after tat we decided to go to e library to borrow video.. i borrowed "Finding Nemo".. cause 2 pp watch together ma.. so kean watch with me lo..even though it was quite nice but i watch till half way.. i almost fall asleep.. haha..
then after we went for our OOP lesson le..hmm..
haiz..

2006-11-07T20:49:00.000-08:00

S&W was fun.. but a bit tiring and my hand hurts a bit too.. got a bit of red red spots on my right hand too.. and after e training is is visible lo.. donnoe y.. hope tml will be okie cause it make my hand look ugly.. sob..today was shaun who is e leader to lead us do e warming up.. so funny lo.. his action.. haha.. enjoy S&W..
then was CATS lesson.. haiz.. same old things abt wat he is saying lo.. so i don wish to say le.. haha..

at first after our CATS... me, meiling and marina thought of going to gym de.. but in e end we change to library.. went to rent videos lo.. spent our afternoon at there ba..then marina and meiling doze off while we were watching.. haha.. i oso ren.. i almost doze off too.. watch from 1.20 to 3 plus.. then after tat go sports hall.. haha..they having S&W so we go there play badminton for a while.. hehe.. then after tat went home le.. haha.. so tiring oso....

i have been thinking abt for e past few hours?? or rather since mon?? after wat u have said.. haiz.. i really feel so heavy in my heart.. everytime u ask me wanna go where.. i mostly would say east coast cause to me.. i believe tat it will make me feel better..haiz.. but nvm ba..

2006-11-06T14:25:00.001-08:00

hmm.. blogging in class now lo.. donnoe can do wat oso..most of us oso not listening to lectures... today i whole day oso no mood to listen to any lectures.. have being thinking abt wat happen yest night..thinking of e everything tat i have heard.. haiz... in a world of my own now.. which no one can enter ba expect for.... but wat can i do?? i can do nth neither can i do anything.. i could onli wish.. argh.. I WISH.. I WISH.......... i really wish wat u have said yest will not happen.. but.. haiz...
I REALLY WISH.... haiz..

2006-11-05T22:06:00.000-08:00

haiz.. today start work at 8.. so sianz lo.. every sun got this stupid irritating "durian" aunty coming to disturb us at work.. haiz.. for wat sia?? is ur life really tat boring, tat no life tat u have to come make things so difficult for us??? y do we have to entertatin all ur shitting man.. we have to run and hide whenever we saw u.. do u noe how sickening u are to us??when we don act according to wat u wanna, u would say "shit" when ur request are so unreasonable.. who do u think u are?? u are already being blacklisted by us.. ur complains are no longer of any use.. then wat is e use man!!! just kindly take ur change and get lost from our check-up counter!!! give u a $5 notes u don wanna.. u wanna 2 $2 notes with numbers ending with 7,8 or 9.. give u a $1 coin u don wanna. u wanna 2 $0.50, give u a $0.20 u don wanna.. u wanna 2 $0.10 coins.. u take liao will win lottery first prize mehz??? idiot.. don have then u wanna cancel sales.. make us kana scolded by our chief cashier sometimes.. don ever let me see u outside disturbing other cashiers or any staff.. i will take revenge.. u just watch out!!!

2006-11-03T11:30:00.000-08:00

hmm.. today got bbq at east coast park at around 5 plus 6 ba.. haha.. quite fun ba.. tat was e first time i help to start a fire..but too bad,i cant ton lo.. how i wish i could then i see sun rise oso.. hmm.. can see e stars too.. but i went at around 9.45 ba.. my piggy no2 so gd sia.. can ton lo.. hmm..
enjoy ba.. for those for who still at there and thanks for sending me home.. i noe veri ma fan ba.. haiz.. sometimes i feel so.. nvm ba..
luckily tml i working afternoon.. i still thought i working morning.. finally i got a day which i can slp later le..Zzzz

2006-11-02T22:57:00.000-08:00

20 people you can think of right now.
Don't read the questions until you have named the 20 people.

1. gabriel
2. kean
3. tze ping
4. shi ying
5. marina
6. meiling
7. ruth
8. ya yun
9. azizah
10. sabrina
11. sharon
12. chris
13. annie
14. allibert
15.jonathan
16. yao en
17.jun xian
18. wei lun
19. zhong ming
20. angie

Questions:

How did i meet #14 - allibert?
` my sec school classmate
What would you do if you never met #1 - gabriel?
` hmm.. complian to him abt my bad moods
What would you do if #20 - angie and #9 - azizah dated?
` stun..i oso donnoe
Does #6 - meiling and #17 - jun xian make a good couple?
` hmm.. not bad ba.. hehe..
Describe #3 - tze ping
`noisy.. but active.. haha
Do you think #8 - ya yun is attractive?
` haha.. of course
Tell me something about #7 - ruth?
` haha.. funny..
Do you know any of #12 -chris?
` always see her during work..
What are #8 -ya yun favourites?
` i oso donnoe lehz..
What would you do if #18 - wei lun confess that she likes you?
`cannot.. he got ai ai liao..
What language does #15 - jonathanspeak?
` english
Who is #9 - azizah going out with??
` hmm.. sometimes me..
How old is #16 - yao en now?
` err.. 3 yrs old ba
Who is #2 kean's favourite band/singer?
` he likes to listen to techno de..
Would you ever date #4 - shi ying?
` nope cause i not les
Would you date #7 - ruth?
` no.. cause i not les..
Is #15 - jonathan single?
` i donnoe..
What's #10 -sabrina's last name?
` i oso donnoe..
Would you ever be in a serious relationship with #11 - sharon?
` she got 1 daughter and son le
What school does #3 - tze ping go to?
` school of ict (MBS i think)
Where does #6 -meiling lives?
` near pasir ris??? (donnoe how to spell oso)
What's your favourite thing about #5 - marina?
`veri funny..haha..
Have you seen #1 - gabriel naked?
`no way man.. later i sure kana sore eyes..

2006-11-02T22:50:00.000-08:00

Class survey
1) Who sits nxt to you ? ` shiying
2) Who sits infront of you?` Fu liang
3) Who sits on your left? `no one
4) Who are your best friend within this class? ` donnoe..
5) Most shy girl ?` Wani
6) Most shy guy?` Kean
7) Cutest guy? ` donnoe who
8) Cutest girl?` meiling
9) Prettiest ?` meiling
10) Brightest of all?` Jin Hui
11) Loudest of all? ` ferry..
12) Funniest? ` aloy, shaun, ferry sometimes
13) How funny are they? ` quite funny
14) Most abnormal? ` erm .......
15) Most innocent looking girl & guy ? ` Chris
16) Ugliest? ` None
17) Tallest? ` Shaun
18) Fattest? ` don have ba
19) Who do you want to choose to be your bf/gf ? ` errr...
20) Your class fav. tcher?` donnoe
21) The tcher your class dislike? ` CATS cher
22) Favourite sub? ` Business Information System???
23) Dislike sub? ` Networking Fundementals and Object-Orientated Programming
24) Your class's class rep? ` Jin Hui
25) How's he/she? ` okie okie lo
26) Who's the asst. class rep?`Kaifeng
27) How's he/she? ` okie okie ba
28) What's your class? `T12!
29) What your class like to do?` Eat, Slack, gaming
30) Do you love your class? ` i'm lovin it

2006-11-01T21:20:00.000-08:00

hmm..donnoe wat to say oso.. suddenly feel so tired.. tired of the things le.. haiz.. i oso donnoe y..

today..donnoe y e "radio" wont off de lohz.. haiz.. e battery sure spoil liao lo.. feel so irritating lo.. but no choice lo..have to bear with it..

my second nephew de nanny donnoe how to take care of baby de lo.. anyhow bully my bao bei sia.. haiz.. my poor bao bei.. anyhow give him eat things.. keep bringing my nephew go cut bota lo.. haiz.. sad sia..

hmm.. overall e day was okie ba.. haha.. happy tat u like it too..

2006-10-31T22:28:00.000-08:00

hmm..today was so fun with my S&W class wor.. cause i join volley oso ma.. even though it was fun but my hand hurts.. got blue black le.. so fast lo.. then it was CATS lesson le..so stupid lo..hmm..after tat wanted to go gym with my piggy no2 de.. but in e end she has to meet her cousin lo.. so nv go.. change of plan le..
i go JP meet my friend after tat but is around 4 plus lo.. haiz.. so i took bus alone to boon lay interchange..since i was hunting for sth so i walk around lo..

5 plus le.. finally my anything friend reach le after waiting so long for him.. buy bread to eat then i drag him to help look for "e things" since i donnoe much abt it too.. hehe.. it was so difficult to find u noe u noe.. haiz..alomst kana chase out by e person sia.. luckily..he didn't.. i scare he will not like "e things" i bought lo.. haiz.. wanna surprise him lo..
thanks to my anything friend wor.. for helping me find "e thing" and giving me idea to make it look nicer.. hmm.. haha..

finally reach home at 7 plus then go eat my dinner and fixed "e thing" to make it look nicer oso.. look for thinner and e shoe polish thingy lo.. OMG.. then my mother keep asking y i need e thinner lo.. but i just kept quiet.. haha.. finally it was done le..so tiring oso..

2006-10-29T21:53:00.000-08:00

hmm.. my first blog done in class wor.. haha.. so funny.. they edit for me e codes de.. so gd loR.. thanks wolf and piggy no.3.. haha..
actually i oso donnoe wat to write oso de loR.. anyhow crap ba..

credits to my wolf and piggy no 3 wor.. haha.. thanks..

went to west mall for a while oso with my shopping mate.. wa.. i saw a gal who was onli 8 or 9 yrs old ba.. but she can serve me andmy friend till so gd sia.. OMG.. i respect u sia.. so young yet can talk till so well.. in future u sure will not much difficultity in e working life..hmm..